An Ah-ha moment

If you would have told me six months before I got sober, "six months from now you will be sober", I would have argued no way and it is against all odds I would even try. Six months before I would have given you some arrogant smart ass comment due to delusions of grandeur. There was no way that could be the case, my whole life revolved around alcohol. The plans always included it, no matter where I was headed. I would even go as far as to say I would have found a way to "glorify alcoholism" (I was the worst active alcoholic), even though it was ruining my life. Before I was in recovery, I remember running into someone who was a couple years sober. I was drinking a Bloody Mary on Sunday (hung over), and I remember just feeling so sorry for him. Thinking he was the "quitter" unbeknownst to me the joke was definitely on me.

So in that very short window of time a switch turned on that I did not think I had. Logical thinking in a drunken stupor helped me to understand something was terribly wrong. Why could I not get my life and health insurance license? Why am I constantly calling people to see what I did last night? Why am I double checking that I did not do anything wrong and if I did call whoever I offended? Why do I have a routine to look out the window to make sure my car is outside the house/my check card and id are in my purse? Why did I lose many jobs? why were people telling me I wreak of alcohol? Why did the people I love constantly address my "problem"? Why am I depressed? why don't I have any ambition? Why was my car totaled? why am I getting cuffed? (I will never forget this internal monologue). Doing an inventory in this moment of truth, it became clear drinking was causing my demise. The time for change became that moment. My whole entire world lit up like the most beautiful blossoming flower. I was forever changed when I quit drinking alcohol.

I walked into it willingly as my present turned into my future. I learned how to deal with it, accept it and embrace the world around me without a drink in my hand.

Anyone can have an "Ah-ha" moment, students around campus may be opposed to the idea of coming to a meeting or hanging out in our designated Collegiate Recovery room. Six months from now the ones who knock it might just need it. Done with substances holding them back. Tired, want change. Ready to see the full potentials that are obtainable.

AA meetings will stop during summer, but we plan on having two in the Fall. Middle of the week Niner Noon Meeting and the usual Campus AA meeting.

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Hillary Belk
Undergraduate Assistant
Wellness Promotion-UNCC